Today’s topic is a little hard for me.
As a woman of faith, what I’m about to say may get me stoned and buried alive.
I’m a woman of faith, someone who believes in God is my source creator and that he sent his son Jesus Christ to die for my sins. A believer in divine intervention, and that some people may not make it to Heaven. I believe the Bible is the inspired written word of God.
I am a believer!
What I’m about to say may offend some and that’s fine, but here goes. Throughout the past two decades, I’ve had the hardest time giving Grace to God, finding that life is extremely hard. With all the wins, I felt I had even more losses.
Have you ever found yourself in a place where you were angry with God? I have.
The Bible does not promise a life of rainbows or unicorns. It also expresses that good deeds do not guarantee placement in Heaven. Yet, I struggle daily with trying to understand the why behind the things that happen in our lives.
In my life, over the past few years, I became a pessimist and no longer an optimist. I started doubting my spiritual connection to God, believing he no longer heard, let alone cared about me. I mean, why would God love me when I cannot even love myself? Besides, I’m a sinner!
Yes, I was trying to play God. Not in the literal sense, but metaphorically. I was trying to tell him how to feel for me even though he told me he’d love me no matter what. I stopped giving God his Grace.
Biblical grace per the Oxford Dictionary,
“the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings.”
Throughout my life, God was telling me to go left, and I would venture right. God would send me trials and tribulations in preparation for greatness, and I told myself I wasn’t worthy enough. God is in control, and I felt like it was a personal attack on my life.
When others around us are receiving God’s blessing, instead of being inspired and cheering them on, we become envious, hateful, and spiteful, assuming God favors people that WE deem as unfavorable.
God is omnipotent and exalted in power and yet, we refuse to give GOD grace. We as humans typically fall short of God’s glory, but the beauty, God is a loving, merciful, and forgiving God.
Life isn’t always what it seems. God must test our faith to show that we are leaning on Him and not ourselves.
Today, give God his grace!